Little Flowers of Love

All of hatred, gossip, jealousy… will have to stop somewhere and it stops with me.   Whatever negative comes into me, I soak it in let it cross over and I turn in into nothingness.   And from that, Love springs like a new plant, and that’s what I pass on. Little flowers of love.

There is Nothing on Earth…

  I had a need to give up my everything to the one that I love in the most dynamic way. To showcase my crazy, burning love for Him, I needed a stage. I desired to renounce the world and hide in God by becoming a nun. Because I’m such a drama queen. I don’t…

When the World Gives You a Lightening

  “A good poet is someone who manages, in a lifetime of standing out in thunderstorms, to be struck by lightening five or six times.” The word of wisdom from Randall Jarrell. But I thought, a good human being is someone who manages, in a lifetime of standing out in thunderstorms, to be struck by…

To Get to You

  How do You see me? What do I look like to You? Because I see in me, a tortured one, in a dark hole, crawling slowly out to the light that seems so far away. Bleeding finger tips, scratched and bruised knees, I am on all fours, like a dying animal, about to pass…

Carrying Solitude, Carrying Jesus

  I envision myself as a captain in my boat, looking ahead, studying my path, taking in the realities of what I am facing. Today is the start of my five consecutive working days. It seems doable. I know I can manage this. Then I look down and oh, I almost forgot. There’s Jesus sitting…

In Defense of Writing

Philip Roth publicly announced that Nemesis will be his last book and that he will no longer write more novels. On his computer is a post-it note that says “The struggle with writing is over.” He said he decided that he will publish no more works back in 2010 but kept it inside to make sure…

The Allure of Solitude

  I love Mr. Kats’s photography as much as his writings directly coming from his farm lifestyle. I love his photos because of its real-life feel. It’s not touched up professionally so much, manipulated, or setup. It’s all real. It comes from his own life, and for every photo, he has a real life story…

The Walk

  Some moments live forever in your heart. My sister shielding my eyes so I cannot see the perverted man who had his private part on display so openly on our walk to the church when we were both very young. Eating pasta somewhere in the back street of paris with my ex-husband when we…

Expert on Mental Illness Reveals Her Own Struggle – NYTimes.com

“Her passion was as deep as her loneliness” Expert on Mental Illness Reveals Her Own Struggle – NYTimes.com   Saved from her suicidal urges, now she is saving the lives of others who are fighting against the same fatal desires she had to go through. Suicidal urge is not to be taken lightly. It is…

The Eyes of Faith

Your faith is strong like a high tower built on a sturdy rock. All things will parish but your faith will remain. Tend your faith, like you tend your garden. This tree I gave you is to be watered regularly. Guard it with love Wait with hope.   For if you cannot maintain faith, but…