It is hard to imagine me living in the city once again, not waking up to the sounds of chirping birds and taking in the fresh breath of the crisp morning air. My mind and heart automatically remember the peace of this place and I am saddened by the first thought that wakes my emotional body: Only two more days left in this beloved country house I have lived for the past year and a half.
It was a short-lived dream of mine. But a dream realized nonetheless. It has truly been a gift from God.
It would make so much more sense to move back to the city. We will be close to everything once again. Short commute- no more horrific journey on the Capitol Beltway- every evening-, short drive to school and classes, and a space we could call, once again, our own.
It took us months to make this decision to move. But when we were finally ready to make the move, the process was unfolding so fast. With every step we took to make this move possible, there was a sense of peace. Day after day, there grew a strong conviction that this is the right thing to do, that this was the will of God. We are moving right along to the flow of the Holy Spirit.
Yes, there is this sadness that I feel about leaving this country life behind. But that is my human mind speaking. I know the peace of this place will continue to live on to heal my mother-in-law and sister-in-law who will be living here from now on. This country house was a pure grace of God, a gift that I received freely. Now the gift is theirs and I hope they heal and grow in this house as I had. I hope they see the beauty of this quiet place. I hope they feel the intimacy of the Holy Spirit.
Now I shift my gaze to the future that I am very close to step in. I step right in with no fear because I know that God has prepared so many gifts for me there as well. As I said in my previous post, everything is a grace. Each day God’s grace is freshly pouring upon us and I hope you meet each day with the anticipation and the joy of the grace being revealed, being fulfilled. I hope I remember this when I go through my periods dark moments during my mental struggles.