Restore us to yourself, Lord, that we may return…

Finally having a bit of silence and quiet time. Lately, I have been avoiding these rare moments when I could finally sit alone with myself. I could sense the deep longing and sadness that only God could heal, lurking deep inside my heart and I knew that the moment I allow my heart to open…

Sunny Promises

Five days of constant rain and dark clouds were coming to an end. I knew that sunlight was in the forecast at some point today, but I got so used to the drizzly rain and comfortably dark sky, I didn’t think much of the forecast. I wanted to avoid it. I wanted to pretend that…

His Peace will Guard Your Hearts and Minds

My heart is filled with sadness that sprang from the void left by my sister’s leaving. She filled my quiet, solitary days with her sunny and vibrant attitude that she is blessed with. She got on her plane just five hours ago, but I feel as if I haven’t seen her for five years already….

Shortness of Life

  I picked some bell peppers, jalapenos, perilla leaves, and tomatoes just before dinner time to go with my spicy chicken dinner. I love that I am able to cook up dinner without going to a grocery store for over a week. I just walked to the garden to pick whatever I need, and whatever…

This country life and hope, hope, hope

I love this country life. This is my view, one of the countless million-dollar views from my drive from my daughter’s preschool. Can you believe it? How can you ever get tired of this view, this country life? I am beyond blessed. But still. Oh the seeking. Oh the desires. Oh this turbulent heart of…

Broken Child of God

One thing I love about living in the country is that my nights here are so quiet and undisturbed except for the sounds of nature. After every one is asleep and all my chores are done, I step outside to finally pause and breathe in the fresh country air. Last night, that moment came at…

True calling

My daughter colored this page last week and we loved it so much that we hung it next to our window in the kitchen. It was only days ago that I noticed the phrase printed under the pony picture. It reads “…..This baby pony may not know what her true calling is, but she is…

Waiting for the Path of Life

This is all the beach I saw today because soon after I took this picture we had some issues getting into our room and after we ordered our pasta which took forever to take out, the night has sunk down on us and my daughter developed her fever and sore throat. But somehow those commends…

Lama, lama, wakey wake

How refreshing to wake up to a lama leisurely taking her morning walk! It is not a rare sight for me as I witness it every morning when I go out to get my newspaper, but I love it every time I see it. This lama provokes certain level of peace within me. It starts…

Misty Morning

I can see the sun hidden behind the thick morning mist still making its usual rounds. Before I know it, the mist gives way to the persistent sun and the full daylight is before me. Clear sky, clear mind, clear visions, and clear answers… I find myself silently sending my wish list to God. Whenever…

Life with Lily

Things were spiraling down rapidly. One event after another, events that arose emotions I could not easily stomach, I was going down fast, losing my calm. I was lost at sea of dark emotions of confusion, sadness, anger, jealousy, and fear. I found myself caught in this consummating fire of my dark passion. Once again….

Pure Simplicity

***** When you live in a small country town, even going to a post office feels like a special trip. I drive through the open corn field, and more open field with unrecognizable crops, meet happy cows along the way, and drive past a dairy farm. It feels so far away from the modern world,…