Stepping out of Darkness

Jealousy, worry, and anger suck life out of my soul. Life in the spiritless body is an empty, hollow void that cannot be filled. It’s a bottomless pit that sucks and swallows up all things alive. Your body embodies the entire hell. And the only way to get out of that hell is to step…

The Epiphany of the Lord

– Sigur Ros: Untitled 3 Sometimes, my prayer takes a form of closing my eyes with my face turned toward the sunrise, soaking and absorbing the warmth. As if evaporated by the heat, my soul flies up and up to the highest. I linger there, unable to utter a single word. Up there, I bow…

Count Your Blessing

The other day, I did a small activity suggested by my good friend, and a Stephen Ministry counselor, P. Make a list of 10 positives in your life, she suggested to me as my mind was overly focusing on the negatives of my current life. I was entering my third week here in the new…

You are Free from your Infirmity

“Woman, you are free from your infirmity”, told Jesus to the woman with a double bent back for 18 years. “Immediately, she straightened up and praised God”, I read in today’s reading (which was yesterday, by the way). Infirmity. That one word penetrated right into my heart. I was full of it. Weaknesses of all…

Fully Human and Fully Spiritual

It was a picturesque evening, a perfect version of a carefree summer evening. Not just the evening, my whole day was perfect as a matter of fact. It was a day well lived in perfect balance and harmony of being human and spiritual at the same time. I have to tell you, it is not…

Therapy for Life

Sun rises make me so happy, especially when I find myself being basked in the first morning light in the countryside. This is the way life is supposed to be. Every time I come to the country house, I feel my soul finally letting her guard down, feeling free to be herself, which is pretty…

A Place to See, Hear, and Feel God

Where do you want to go now? I ask her. We just finished our Friday morning swim class. It was only 10 in the morning. We still had a whole day ahead of us. Ummm…¬† My two-year-old toddler is in deep thoughts for a moment. I watch her in anticipation wondering what she would say….

Daffodils

  *** *** Today, I bought a small pot of daffodils. I picked one with two flower bulbs just shy of peek. I could tell they were eager to bloom but were holding it off just in case something wonderful happened to them. I brought my new plant into my warm living room. It’s 35…

The Darkest Hour Is Just Before the Dawn.

  Hide, the lead guitarist from X Japan was only 33 years old when he was found dead hanged by a towel tied to a doorknob in his apartment in Tokyo. It was in 1998, the year after they disbanded X Japan to focus on solo projects. ¬†Once the Authorities officially announced Hide’s death a…

The Scar

* * * In Vita, the monks record her entering the monastery of St Disibod ‘in order to be buried with Christ and with him rise to immortality.’ – Hildegard of Bingen by Fiona Maddocks * * * “Why do you have these cuts on your hands? Oh, there’s more…” M said the other day….