Legacy of Faith

For the first time since my grandmother passed away, I got to have a couple of hours to myself. I came home after dropping my daughter off at her school, and went outside with hot coffee to warm me up. This empty land out in my backyard, overlooking the untamed woods, is far from a…

Silence of God

It’s a cool summer morning after the rain shower swept through. It brings me back to the day when I was just arriving at the cabin in the Blue Ridge Mountain at the monastery. Sudden rain storm was hailing on us. We had to wait out in the car for the rain to give us…

Hallelujah

Thomas Merton says, “In a world of noise, confusion, and conflict, it is necessary that there be places of inner silence and peace, not the peace of mere relaxation but the peace of inner clarity and love.” These places of inner silence and peace can have so many personal meanings. I came across this quote…

Something Greater

There was a time when going to the weekly Eucharistic Adoration was the only thing I looked forward to in my life. It gave me hope to endure my struggling week and it gave me strength to carry on another week. This powerful hour of silence in God’s presence was my everything. I faithfully observed…

If You Can Dream It

After a failed job interview, I sit here wondering and asking: Am I cut out for a traditional employment type? Making data entries that have no personal meaning for 8 hours a day or working within the boundaries of certain systems created with high rate of production in mind? Is that really what I want?…

At the Conclusion of the Year of Faith

Winter has never been my best month, but this winter, the season is well with my soul. I didn’t mean to fall asleep at the Eucharistic Adoration. I almost think it was Jesus who knew that I was tired gave me sleep. I dozed for a mild sleep-like rest, my body reduced to a small…

“You Belong to Me”

~ ~ ~ Dear children! Today again I am calling you to prayer to complete surrender to God. You know that I love you and am coming here out of love so I could show you the path to peace and salvation for your souls. I want you to obey me and not permit satan…

I Am No Hippie

He has a very intense job where he controls the power center for all telecommunication networks for a big name company. He also has his own business that he’s been building up for the past 4 years. This is his second business after his first attempt that left him with no money but a lot…

It’s Me and God Tonight

I am looking at the picture that Neil took of me. In it, I look so sad… My eyes are gazing outside the window and I am lifting the curtain.. as if.. as if I am waiting for someone to arrive. I have such longing in my eyes.. and it feels like the eyes are…

Confused and Happy

I am descending the long stoney path leading me down to the parking lot from the monastery. Last time I walked down this path was last October after I had just been told that the community cannot receive me. Was that really less than a year ago? I had some gut back then. I laugh…