Ultimate Therapy Plan

I stare at the wide open road outside my dining room window with forlorn eyes. I can almost picture myself so vividly on that road, running, with my long pony tail swinging fast side to side. My lungs fill with cold morning air, sweats form on my forehead and back, and my mind is on…

The joy of Your Presence, O God

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.  -Psalm 16:11 I am feeling so much peace this early pre-dawn. Soon the responsibilities and realities will dawn on me and my age-old anxiety will return testing my faith but for now…

Lazarus of the Four Days

The memories of my past one month is vague. I remember them by the emotions that circulated through my body each week as my mind continued to be baffled by the sequence of events happening each day and each week as my new life in my new place unfolded. Few things were happening at all…

Count Your Blessing

The other day, I did a small activity suggested by my good friend, and a Stephen Ministry counselor, P. Make a list of 10 positives in your life, she suggested to me as my mind was overly focusing on the negatives of my current life. I was entering my third week here in the new…

Stairway to Heaven

What is it about steps that makes you want to sit still and stare down? The long staircase that leads you down to the floor below lies right before your eyes. One step at a time, I climbed to reach the top where my two bedrooms are. After I finally put my daughter to sleep,…

Beauty of Grace

Once green, now the leaves on a tree right outside my dining room is changing their colors. So much has happened within the last two weeks. We moved from Maryland to Virginia. We found a new school for our daughter. Then M had to go on a business trip leaving us to deal with the…

New Morning

This morning, I am thankful for the warm sunlight by my dining table. One good part of living in a townhouse is that you live so up high that you feel that much closer to the sky. I suffered from the tightened heart muscle pain for the first few days of my city life. It…

Everything Is Grace

I had just finished praying the rosary. Tears flooded down my face wetting the floor. I could hardly open my eyes after crying for a couple of hours. Lord, help me finish this life, not by my own power but purely by your grace. When these words poured out of my mouth, my tears finally…

The Storms of Our Lives

Was it a vision? Or my imagination? I still try to find an explanation for that night. It was sometime between 2 and 5 AM when my sleeping daughter kicked her cute chubby leg up into the air only to have it land on my belly. At that moment, I was awakened instantly and had…

A Sense of Belonging

“Captain Benwick reading poetry aloud while Captain Harville mends his fishing net is a little image of how she imagined a secure home and a sense of belonging.” I read this morning, sitting under the parasol on my yard. The early morning breeze tells me that the autumn is not far off. I can taste…