Between a Book and a Flowery Place

Spring is deepening day by day and the long winter days of deep snow and frozen driveway are fading beyond the horizon of my memories. My dog is dozing lazily in the sunny spot on my deck and the flower seeds are hard at work diligently growing the shoots every day. I dry radish slices…

Morning Messages

It was a rare morning. I got into a habit of sleeping in for a while now but that morning, I felt the strong urge to go down for some quiet time alone. It was a little after five in the morning. It was still as dark as a midnight as I sat alone under…

If I just let my thoughts fly…

I let my thoughts fly with no bounds. If I let it be, I could be dangerously close to committing something unreal. I guess that was why God had sent me a child. So that I can’t dwell in my thoughts too much. When I had all the freedom to think all my thoughts, I…

Easy Existence

A friend asked me today, “How are you in general?” during our conversation. I answered, “I don’t know. I am functioning. I am at least able to carry out my daily chores. So that’s good enough for me.” I have such low expectation of myself, don’t I? But if you have ever suffered clinical depression,…

Art Remedy

I search for music but nothing inspires me. I search for the words to get by this moment, but it’s fruitless. I am looking for some meaning, any meaning to give me a sense of lifting. I need an uplifting moment right now. I look out the window. It’s dark and cloudy. I remember the…

The Days of My Life

Have you ever made a major life decision purely because of a bible verse? You have no reason to do such a thing, no logical basis for the choice you made, but you did it anyway because the bible verse told you so? I had such moments. Small and big moments that shaped the life…

Simplest Remedies

She is curious and always jumps on opportunities to explore to learn more. She goes to Japan, to Hawaii, to Utah, to California, to New Jersey, and to anywhere she feels called to be whether it is to fulfill her family engagements or to purely satisfy her desire to learn more. She is a doctor…

Hope

I’m going for a long walk today. Into the woods, along the lake, muddy trails will guide my path. And on this long, long trail, I finally have time to ponder. I ponder on all the paths that I have taken. I think about how all those small roads have brought me here. It’s a…

Anxiety Turned into Love

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9 Let nothing disturb you, nothing frighten you;  All things are passing; God never changes.  -St. Teresa of Jesus Let us throw ourselves into the ocean of God’s goodness where every failing will be…

Waiting out the Rain

It’s a quiet morning, just waiting out the rain in my car. A brief sunny day after more than a week of rain storms passed quickly and the familiar rain is here again. All morning, I have been hearing depressing stories. Jobs are on the line for two of my direct family members. Basically all…