Soul Consciousness

The music titled “Japan” plays on my Pandora station. I loved this song so much at one point of my life that I replayed this tune all day for weeks until I finally grew out of it. It brings back my fond memories of my Hawaii days. At the same time, my mind remembers the…

Legacy of Faith

For the first time since my grandmother passed away, I got to have a couple of hours to myself. I came home after dropping my daughter off at her school, and went outside with hot coffee to warm me up. This empty land out in my backyard, overlooking the untamed woods, is far from a…

Warm Corner

You got to have a warm corner where you can cocoon inside and nurture your soul. I have such several places throughout my small country house. This morning, I found myself curled up here in this comfortable corner of my couch in the living room. Covered in my white winter blanket with white cushion supporting…

See you again, Grandma

Today, my grandma wakes up in her new home, heaven. It was a drizzly rainy day all day. On my drive back home from the airport after dropping my mom off for her flight to Korea, I couldn’t stop crying. I now realize that I was mourning in grief during that hour-long drive home. It…

How to Live the Best Day of Your Life

  When you are in a meaningful and significant relationship such as marriage, it is most likely that you spend A LOT of your time with that person. Not only the quantity of time in each other’s presence increases significantly- and hopefully in a meaningful manner- but also you reveal so much of yourself on…

Do You Know?

  I met a woman who now bears the pain of losing her own child. She married a man she loved a year ago. I bet these newly weds had no idea that they will be standing in their daughter’s funeral a year later. It’s the same season, and the same cold November wind, but…

The Darkest Hour Is Just Before the Dawn.

  Hide, the lead guitarist from X Japan was only 33 years old when he was found dead hanged by a towel tied to a doorknob in his apartment in Tokyo. It was in 1998, the year after they disbanded X Japan to focus on solo projects.  Once the Authorities officially announced Hide’s death a…

Shadow of Spring

* * * * * * My grandmother is diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease. My eldest aunt has a new found cancer cell in her spine as of last week. Another aunt of mine has been in therapy for her cancer for the last seven years. My sister: Hypothyroidism. Me: Bipolar. One by one, disease is…