Stepping out of Darkness

Jealousy, worry, and anger suck life out of my soul. Life in the spiritless body is an empty, hollow void that cannot be filled. It’s a bottomless pit that sucks and swallows up all things alive. Your body embodies the entire hell. And the only way to get out of that hell is to step…

Sloth

I really like sloths. Recently, the word ‘sloth’ has become some sort of a keyword, a symbol for a life lived in leisure. If Hygge is for Nordic lifestyle, then sloth is the way to go in Central and South America. And the idea is catching on. We are always so busy, goal driven, breathlessly…

The Epiphany of the Lord

– Sigur Ros: Untitled 3 Sometimes, my prayer takes a form of closing my eyes with my face turned toward the sunrise, soaking and absorbing the warmth. As if evaporated by the heat, my soul flies up and up to the highest. I linger there, unable to utter a single word. Up there, I bow…

A Year of Loving

It rained the morning I went to the bookstore to try my luck on a new devotional book for the new year. As if I were going on a blind date, I felt heart fluttering in anticipation of what I will discover. Unfortunately, my local bookstore’s Christian living section did not have many options for…

Ultimate Therapy Plan

I stare at the wide open road outside my dining room window with forlorn eyes. I can almost picture myself so vividly on that road, running, with my long pony tail swinging fast side to side. My lungs fill with cold morning air, sweats form on my forehead and back, and my mind is on…

More than an Easy Day

The day I started my yoga at the local studio about a month ago, I was going through so much anxiety and I did not know what to do with my anxious self. I remembered the flyer I picked up at a coffee bar about a new student special for the first one month of…

The joy of Your Presence, O God

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.  -Psalm 16:11 I am feeling so much peace this early pre-dawn. Soon the responsibilities and realities will dawn on me and my age-old anxiety will return testing my faith but for now…

Lazarus of the Four Days

The memories of my past one month is vague. I remember them by the emotions that circulated through my body each week as my mind continued to be baffled by the sequence of events happening each day and each week as my new life in my new place unfolded. Few things were happening at all…

Count Your Blessing

The other day, I did a small activity suggested by my good friend, and a Stephen Ministry counselor, P. Make a list of 10 positives in your life, she suggested to me as my mind was overly focusing on the negatives of my current life. I was entering my third week here in the new…

You are Free from your Infirmity

“Woman, you are free from your infirmity”, told Jesus to the woman with a double bent back for 18 years. “Immediately, she straightened up and praised God”, I read in today’s reading (which was yesterday, by the way). Infirmity. That one word penetrated right into my heart. I was full of it. Weaknesses of all…