Holy Mary, Mother of God

* * * Before the clock hits 9 o’clock, I hit the bed and close my eyes. I hug my stuffed pink lamb close to my chest. I know I’m too old for this. But hey, I’m just being me. In my ears, Silent Night is sung by Bon Jovi. It’s the one they performed…

The Helping Hand

Something’s pulling me back to loneliness… “You can hold my hand if you want.”, he told me as we were climbing up the long stair in the subway station, somewhere in Seoul. And I did reach out my hand fast and held his. I held onto his hand- the helping hand. He was such a…

Beautiful disaster

  Depression scares a lot of people. I can easily keep guys at bay by telling them that I have bipolar. Oh, you don’t want to be involved with me. I have bipolar. I have no problem saying that. It’s my way of saying, ‘leave me alone.’, very politely. It scares my ex-husband. When we talked…

Oh, Shenandoah, I’m bound to leave you

When I left the marriage, I did not leave him with any option. I signed everything off, including my car and our house on a golf course, and claimed no possession to anything that we owned together. When I came to him at such a young age of 21, I came with nothing, so I…