Beauty of Grace

Once green, now the leaves on a tree right outside my dining room is changing their colors. So much has happened within the last two weeks. We moved from Maryland to Virginia. We found a new school for our daughter. Then M had to go on a business trip leaving us to deal with the…

He makes all things new

I stepped out of the chapel after praying and discovered forcynthia bushes on the way to their fullness. Even though the winter just won’t budge, spring is fighting her way in, spreading its unmistakable hope all over the world. It looks like snow will fall down any moment and I am wearing two thick layers…

The Art of Fearless Diving

* * * I do my calculation quickly. I have been doing this over and over again for the past two weeks. I don’t know why I keep doing this because the result is the same every time. According to my calculation, my studio can only last for another month. If I can squeeze to…

St. Michael the Archangel

He’s got a big open chest, and giant wings. He’s got a lance ready to pierce in his hand while his foot is trampling over Satan’s head. He’s got power to kill the evil and to protect justice. He is not afraid. Instead, he is on the front line as a warrior, going wherever those…

A Vision to Save

I think it was about this time last year that I was sitting on my parent’s front porch suppressing my suicidal urge. It was especially intense that morning, and the scary thing was that I was home alone. Well, to the human eyes, I was alone. But I knew I wasn’t. I knew I had…

The Hardest Thing

One of the hardest thing for me is not to say what’s on my mind. Usually the words come out of my mouth as soon as they are formed in my brain, and before I know it, I am hearing myself talking things that I shouldn’t be talking or things listeners might find very inappropriate….

The Quiet Writing Life

* * * You need to assess the potential of your idea when you start a new business. It can save you from financial ruin by giving you an objective perspective. You must do this before you follow through any business plans, or any careers for that matter because once you are in, you are…

There Is No One Like Me

~ ~ ~ I am at the church praying in the darkness. It’s 6 in the morning. Worship music plays gently, but I am in my own world. A world of fear.  Why do I fear so much? And what do I fear?  I know the answer. It’s an abstract fear. It’s the sort that…

Little Girl

One weekday morning in Hawaii, I was walking down the hill for a long walk to have breakfast in the downtown by myself. It was going to be a 30 minute walk in the glorious Hawaiian sun light. I was off from work that day, a free woman with no care in the world. I…

Overcoming Doubt

The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. Psalm 23:1 When it feels like God has withdrawn His presence, the days are covered in thick fog that lasts throughout the entire day, and the perception as obscure as the overcast sky. Everything loses its colors and it feels like walking with my eyes closed. So…