More than an Easy Day

The day I started my yoga at the local studio about a month ago, I was going through so much anxiety and I did not know what to do with my anxious self. I remembered the flyer I picked up at a coffee bar about a new student special for the first one month of…

Thanksgiving in Heaven

Fragrance of frankincense is slowly filling the room while my sweet potato is being baked fast in my air fryer. As always, I sit in my favorite corner in my dining room soaking in the morning light. Thanksgiving is finally here. I’ve been hearing the messages of thanksgiving all week. At my parish, from the…

Holy Spirit

“How do you speak about the Holy Spirit in such a way that it is clear and has something to do with my concrete life experience?” -The Genesee Diary, Henry J.M. Nouwen It’s six O’cock and it’s still dark. It would have been five in the morning just a couple of weeks ago before the…

The joy of Your Presence, O God

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.  -Psalm 16:11 I am feeling so much peace this early pre-dawn. Soon the responsibilities and realities will dawn on me and my age-old anxiety will return testing my faith but for now…

Lazarus of the Four Days

The memories of my past one month is vague. I remember them by the emotions that circulated through my body each week as my mind continued to be baffled by the sequence of events happening each day and each week as my new life in my new place unfolded. Few things were happening at all…

Stairway to Heaven

What is it about steps that makes you want to sit still and stare down? The long staircase that leads you down to the floor below lies right before your eyes. One step at a time, I climbed to reach the top where my two bedrooms are. After I finally put my daughter to sleep,…

Beauty of Grace

Once green, now the leaves on a tree right outside my dining room is changing their colors. So much has happened within the last two weeks. We moved from Maryland to Virginia. We found a new school for our daughter. Then M had to go on a business trip leaving us to deal with the…

Moving Right Along

It is hard to imagine me living in the city once again, not waking up to the sounds of chirping birds and taking in the fresh breath of the crisp morning air. My mind and heart automatically remember the peace of this place and I am saddened by the first thought that wakes my emotional…

Everything Is Grace

I had just finished praying the rosary. Tears flooded down my face wetting the floor. I could hardly open my eyes after crying for a couple of hours. Lord, help me finish this life, not by my own power but purely by your grace. When these words poured out of my mouth, my tears finally…

Waiting out the Rain

It’s a quiet morning, just waiting out the rain in my car. A brief sunny day after more than a week of rain storms passed quickly and the familiar rain is here again. All morning, I have been hearing depressing stories. Jobs are on the line for two of my direct family members. Basically all…