How Are You

How are you. I just realized that I haven’t been asked that question in so long. Stuck at home since February, every day is a survival game. I feel as if I am hanging by the thread, doing my best not to irritate the thin balance by adding more tension. How am I? It is…

Something Meaningful

* * * Running in the highest heat of the day makes me envision a lone cyclist racing through a deserted road in the middle of a desert. The burning heat of the asphalt quickly raises my body temperature enabling me to sweat to my heart’s content. The heavy weight I carry in my heart vanishes…

Effortless

If you have been my reader for a while, you would by now know that I am an advocate for an effortless living. It is not that I am an advocate for a lazy, slacking, timing-wasting lifestyle, but it is that I am very tired of being an avid activist for myself for so long…

If I just let my thoughts fly…

I let my thoughts fly with no bounds. If I let it be, I could be dangerously close to committing something unreal. I guess that was why God had sent me a child. So that I can’t dwell in my thoughts too much. When I had all the freedom to think all my thoughts, I…

Easy Existence

A friend asked me today, “How are you in general?” during our conversation. I answered, “I don’t know. I am functioning. I am at least able to carry out my daily chores. So that’s good enough for me.” I have such low expectation of myself, don’t I? But if you have ever suffered clinical depression,…

Isolation

Isolation. A remote place. To be alone (Matthew 14:13).  An Isolated place (Mark. 1:35). The secluded place (Mark 1:45). These words pop right out of the Bible I am reading this morning. It was the condition of my existence for the last month. Not because of the Coronavirus, but because of the Flu, type A,…

Art Remedy

I search for music but nothing inspires me. I search for the words to get by this moment, but it’s fruitless. I am looking for some meaning, any meaning to give me a sense of lifting. I need an uplifting moment right now. I look out the window. It’s dark and cloudy. I remember the…

A New Promise

In the midst of my sister’s ten-day visit from Seoul, my Christmas and New Year went by like a snap. It’s like I woke up from a very active and busy dream taken from several locations (New York City, Baltimore, and regions of Virginia) that featured all my family members. Now my sister woke up…

Arise, Little Souls

In tears, I look at the painting hanging on the wall. I purchased the painting on the Big Island while I was living out there. It was my third year and I would soon sail away to move back to the mainland. The painting captured my heart when I first saw it. Under the moonlight,…

Early Thanksgiving

As I was limping through my last month of summer fighting against my recurring panic attacks, fall arrived without my taking notice. The memories of my last summer weeks are jumbled puzzle pieces that I cannot sort out. But it does not matter. I can feel the refreshing cool autumn air every morning I open…