Between a Book and a Flowery Place

Spring is deepening day by day and the long winter days of deep snow and frozen driveway are fading beyond the horizon of my memories. My dog is dozing lazily in the sunny spot on my deck and the flower seeds are hard at work diligently growing the shoots every day. I dry radish slices…

A Gift That Keeps on Giving

There are very few things that bring me joy. On top of the list is probably a box of Korean books freshly delivered straight from Seoul, my beloved city. The day my most recent order of books arrived, I was in the darkest mood I’ve felt in years. I ordered them a month ago, when…

Starlight

These past weeks, I have been asking myself this question: Do those Mount Athos monks know what is going on in the news? I ask this question because I am wondering myself how much I should permit myself to know or receive the media feed. It hurts to not know. It hurts to know. I…

How Are You

How are you. I just realized that I haven’t been asked that question in so long. Stuck at home since February, every day is a survival game. I feel as if I am hanging by the thread, doing my best not to irritate the thin balance by adding more tension. How am I? It is…

Something Meaningful

* * * Running in the highest heat of the day makes me envision a lone cyclist racing through a deserted road in the middle of a desert. The burning heat of the asphalt quickly raises my body temperature enabling me to sweat to my heart’s content. The heavy weight I carry in my heart vanishes…

Effortless

If you have been my reader for a while, you would by now know that I am an advocate for an effortless living. It is not that I am an advocate for a lazy, slacking, timing-wasting lifestyle, but it is that I am very tired of being an avid activist for myself for so long…

If I just let my thoughts fly…

I let my thoughts fly with no bounds. If I let it be, I could be dangerously close to committing something unreal. I guess that was why God had sent me a child. So that I can’t dwell in my thoughts too much. When I had all the freedom to think all my thoughts, I…

Easy Existence

A friend asked me today, “How are you in general?” during our conversation. I answered, “I don’t know. I am functioning. I am at least able to carry out my daily chores. So that’s good enough for me.” I have such low expectation of myself, don’t I? But if you have ever suffered clinical depression,…

Isolation

Isolation. A remote place. To be alone (Matthew 14:13).  An Isolated place (Mark. 1:35). The secluded place (Mark 1:45). These words pop right out of the Bible I am reading this morning. It was the condition of my existence for the last month. Not because of the Coronavirus, but because of the Flu, type A,…

Art Remedy

I search for music but nothing inspires me. I search for the words to get by this moment, but it’s fruitless. I am looking for some meaning, any meaning to give me a sense of lifting. I need an uplifting moment right now. I look out the window. It’s dark and cloudy. I remember the…