Ultimate Therapy Plan

I stare at the wide open road outside my dining room window with forlorn eyes. I can almost picture myself so vividly on that road, running, with my long pony tail swinging fast side to side. My lungs fill with cold morning air, sweats form on my forehead and back, and my mind is on…

Holy Spirit

“How do you speak about the Holy Spirit in such a way that it is clear and has something to do with my concrete life experience?” -The Genesee Diary, Henry J.M. Nouwen It’s six O’cock and it’s still dark. It would have been five in the morning just a couple of weeks ago before the…

The joy of Your Presence, O God

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.  -Psalm 16:11 I am feeling so much peace this early pre-dawn. Soon the responsibilities and realities will dawn on me and my age-old anxiety will return testing my faith but for now…

Lazarus of the Four Days

The memories of my past one month is vague. I remember them by the emotions that circulated through my body each week as my mind continued to be baffled by the sequence of events happening each day and each week as my new life in my new place unfolded. Few things were happening at all…

Count Your Blessing

The other day, I did a small activity suggested by my good friend, and a Stephen Ministry counselor, P. Make a list of 10 positives in your life, she suggested to me as my mind was overly focusing on the negatives of my current life. I was entering my third week here in the new…

You are Free from your Infirmity

“Woman, you are free from your infirmity”, told Jesus to the woman with a double bent back for 18 years. “Immediately, she straightened up and praised God”, I read in today’s reading (which was yesterday, by the way). Infirmity. That one word penetrated right into my heart. I was full of it. Weaknesses of all…

Stairway to Heaven

What is it about steps that makes you want to sit still and stare down? The long staircase that leads you down to the floor below lies right before your eyes. One step at a time, I climbed to reach the top where my two bedrooms are. After I finally put my daughter to sleep,…

Anxiety Turned into Love

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9 Let nothing disturb you, nothing frighten you;  All things are passing; God never changes.  -St. Teresa of Jesus Let us throw ourselves into the ocean of God’s goodness where every failing will be…

New Morning

This morning, I am thankful for the warm sunlight by my dining table. One good part of living in a townhouse is that you live so up high that you feel that much closer to the sky. I suffered from the tightened heart muscle pain for the first few days of my city life. It…

Moving Right Along

It is hard to imagine me living in the city once again, not waking up to the sounds of chirping birds and taking in the fresh breath of the crisp morning air. My mind and heart automatically remember the peace of this place and I am saddened by the first thought that wakes my emotional…