Ultimate Therapy Plan

I stare at the wide open road outside my dining room window with forlorn eyes. I can almost picture myself so vividly on that road, running, with my long pony tail swinging fast side to side. My lungs fill with cold morning air, sweats form on my forehead and back, and my mind is on…

The joy of Your Presence, O God

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.  -Psalm 16:11 I am feeling so much peace this early pre-dawn. Soon the responsibilities and realities will dawn on me and my age-old anxiety will return testing my faith but for now…

Count Your Blessing

The other day, I did a small activity suggested by my good friend, and a Stephen Ministry counselor, P. Make a list of 10 positives in your life, she suggested to me as my mind was overly focusing on the negatives of my current life. I was entering my third week here in the new…

Magical Things

The Third Charm. It’s the title of a Korean soap I am watching currently. I normally don’t watch television shows. But I do once in a blue moon when I feel like my creativity has dried out. I asked my Korean friend for a suggestion and this was what she suggested. The Third Charm. Biblically,…

Waiting out the Rain

It’s a quiet morning, just waiting out the rain in my car. A brief sunny day after more than a week of rain storms passed quickly and the familiar rain is here again. All morning, I have been hearing depressing stories. Jobs are on the line for two of my direct family members. Basically all…

He makes all things new

I stepped out of the chapel after praying and discovered forcynthia bushes on the way to their fullness. Even though the winter just won’t budge, spring is fighting her way in, spreading its unmistakable hope all over the world. It looks like snow will fall down any moment and I am wearing two thick layers…

Legacy of Faith

For the first time since my grandmother passed away, I got to have a couple of hours to myself. I came home after dropping my daughter off at her school, and went outside with hot coffee to warm me up. This empty land out in my backyard, overlooking the untamed woods, is far from a…

Sunny Promises

Five days of constant rain and dark clouds were coming to an end. I knew that sunlight was in the forecast at some point today, but I got so used to the drizzly rain and comfortably dark sky, I didn’t think much of the forecast. I wanted to avoid it. I wanted to pretend that…

This country life and hope, hope, hope

I love this country life. This is my view, one of the countless million-dollar views from my drive from my daughter’s preschool. Can you believe it? How can you ever get tired of this view, this country life? I am beyond blessed. But still. Oh the seeking. Oh the desires. Oh this turbulent heart of…

True calling

My daughter colored this page last week and we loved it so much that we hung it next to our window in the kitchen. It was only days ago that I noticed the phrase printed under the pony picture. It reads “…..This baby pony may not know what her true calling is, but she is…