The whisper of a stream

  All human beings thirst for love. They seek it from each other, and if that is not possible, they seek it among material things. Everything is various expression of the desire to love and to be loved- even the childish tantrum or unbearable betrayal. We love each other with such distortion and we persecute each other’s…

If You Can Dream It

After a failed job interview, I sit here wondering and asking: Am I cut out for a traditional employment type? Making data entries that have no personal meaning for 8 hours a day or working within the boundaries of certain systems created with high rate of production in mind? Is that really what I want?…

Peculiar Winter

It’s snowing again this morning. Everyone is surprised by this late snow. This year has been nothing like any other. They even had snow in Jerusalem this winter. I think that sums up the peculiarity of this winter. This winter was a peculiar season for me as well. It was the winter I lived through the most…

Be Still and Know that I am God

Why is it so hard to stay still? Two weeks of no work have suddenly befallen upon me and on my day three, I am already anxious about paying my bills, paying for food, and paying for the TESOL certification course I have already decided to enroll. We only have five kids at the preschool…

Bye Bye Winter Blues

Deep snow is still on the ground but melting fast. Finally the sun’s out, setting me free from the persistent winter’s grasp. So many fantasies came and went throughout this winter. I daydreamed of moving back to Hawaii, or trying a new life in Florida. Every morning, I woke up yearning for another place, anywhere…

His Mission

Alarm rings at four. My biorhythm has changed, and this winter, I find it very hard to wake up early. Aggravation and irritation take over my mind in an instance. ‘I’d rather join a military… I’m going to die of waking up early one of these days…’ I murmur in frustration, still half asleep. I feel…

Happiness of Selma

The roads froze up the day after the hard snow hit through the town. At 4:20 in the morning, I got into my car, with my dad, who insisted driving me to work and picking me up later. Sure enough, very few people were brave enough to venture out the storm for a cup of…

Last Post of 2013

It’s been a hectic few weeks. I was on many emotional roller coaster ride, but not for my mental instability. That’s something my psychologist wouldn’t miss to remark on my progress note if I were still having a therapy. It has been a few weeks of many trials, small and big, all in the midst…

Let Nothing Disturb You

A book that I have been waiting for is finally here. A morning spent with great teachings of St. Teresa of Avila and a hot mug full of hot chocolate on this cold winter morning is a lot to be thankful for. I am short on time for my writing today, so I replace my…

Staying Centered

“God has not called me to be successful; He has called me to be faithful.” – Blessed Teresa of Calcutta * * * I am on job search site again at 5 in the morning, trying to find another job. Honestly, it’s been so hard to get up at 4 in the morning to go to…