Sunny Promises

Five days of constant rain and dark clouds were coming to an end. I knew that sunlight was in the forecast at some point today, but I got so used to the drizzly rain and comfortably dark sky, I didn’t think much of the forecast. I wanted to avoid it. I wanted to pretend that…

A Place to See, Hear, and Feel God

Where do you want to go now? I ask her. We just finished our Friday morning swim class. It was only 10 in the morning. We still had a whole day ahead of us. Ummm…  My two-year-old toddler is in deep thoughts for a moment. I watch her in anticipation wondering what she would say….

Dealing with Separation

My good friend E came from Hawaii to attend her orientation at John Hopkins. She has been admitted to a PhD program recently and when the news came early this year that she will be in town for a few days, I was overjoyed. When we parted back in 2011 from Kona, I was still…

It’s Me and God Tonight

I am looking at the picture that Neil took of me. In it, I look so sad… My eyes are gazing outside the window and I am lifting the curtain.. as if.. as if I am waiting for someone to arrive. I have such longing in my eyes.. and it feels like the eyes are…

When Loneliness Is Replaced with Longing

  Sometimes in life, loneliness is replaced with longing very quickly. One hundred years of solitude turns into timeless eternity of longing. I am not sugarcoating the emotion of longing. It could be just as painful as loneliness. Especially if the longing comes with no promise of being fulfilled. If you think about it, loneliness…

A Girl with a Smile

When I got out of 5 pm Mass on Saturday evening, the evening sky was still as hot and intense as the day. Usually the intense brightness of the afternoon would magnify my gloom, especially so, when I am just getting out of a family friendly Saturday Mass full of families with small children and…

The Lonely Cat

The Lonely Cat Once there was a lonely cat who had no friends. He cried and cried and was not happy. He was sad! But no friends, so he thought and thought to get new friends. But today he got newfriends! He was happy. The end. I found this story my 6 year old nephew…

This Is My Utopia

If I could choose my first artist to work with once I open my art gallery next month, I would want him to be Van Gogh. An unrecognized, yet talented, and sensitive soul whose passion is so intense that it spills all over for the world to see. It spills from his mouth. You can…

Holy, My God, Hold me, Your Child

If you refuse medical treatment like me, then the best cure for panic attack is crying and sleeping. You literally cry and sleep your way out of the acute pain in your heart, the tightness around your chest, and the heaviness of your brain. Crying is a biological response to the need for chemical release….

Holy Mary, Mother of God

* * * Before the clock hits 9 o’clock, I hit the bed and close my eyes. I hug my stuffed pink lamb close to my chest. I know I’m too old for this. But hey, I’m just being me. In my ears, Silent Night is sung by Bon Jovi. It’s the one they performed…