Legacy of Faith

For the first time since my grandmother passed away, I got to have a couple of hours to myself. I came home after dropping my daughter off at her school, and went outside with hot coffee to warm me up. This empty land out in my backyard, overlooking the untamed woods, is far from a…

See you again, Grandma

Today, my grandma wakes up in her new home, heaven. It was a drizzly rainy day all day. On my drive back home from the airport after dropping my mom off for her flight to Korea, I couldn’t stop crying. I now realize that I was mourning in grief during that hour-long drive home. It…

Sunny Promises

Five days of constant rain and dark clouds were coming to an end. I knew that sunlight was in the forecast at some point today, but I got so used to the drizzly rain and comfortably dark sky, I didn’t think much of the forecast. I wanted to avoid it. I wanted to pretend that…

Something Greater

There was a time when going to the weekly Eucharistic Adoration was the only thing I looked forward to in my life. It gave me hope to endure my struggling week and it gave me strength to carry on another week. This powerful hour of silence in God’s presence was my everything. I faithfully observed…

Running through Love and Fear

* * * I am nearing my turn around point on my run. It’s a four way intersection where I have no intention of crossing, so turning around at that spot is always a sensible thing to do but that’s not the only reason why. A sign that reads “Abbey” hangs on the tall fence…

Everything to Gain

I am so used to my wretched cry when I kneel to pray that when I am at complete peace during my prayer, I am at a complete loss. Some very dramatic element is missing, so I try to squeeze out some painful memories to produce some tears. But today, I did something that was…

Beyond the Moment

  If I defied my fallen nature even for a single day, and lived that day doing the perfect will of God, my life was worth it because of that one day.   If I suffered great pain even for a single soul, and endured it by praying for God’s strength, my soul will be…