Love Will Decide Everything

8:30 AM. I am at the bar. I feel my temperature dropping quickly, as my shaking body is about to collapse. It happens so fast, as it always does. Panic attack takes on a life of its own and things collapse at a mind-numbing speed. Before things go even worse, I stop everything and run…

To the Light

* * *  * * * The drive to the church involves a hilly ride through the national state park area. Right across from the preserved natural land, sits my church proudly. It’s quite an impressive organization that offers local charity works, and  is deeply involved with outreach programs. But most of all, it successfully…

Prayer for Mercy

  Mercy, Mercy, Mercy- Pour out Your Mercy upon us Your people, O God We suffer, Your servants- See how we suffer Hear the pangs of our pain, O God the Merciful One.   Mercy, Mercy, Mercy- Shine Your Merciful Face upon us Your people, O God We cry to you, your poor ones- Hear…

This divine relationship

I try not to miss the exposition of the holy eucharist. It happens every Thursday at my catholic church. The smell of incense fires up my euphoric experience. I did my favorite form of prayer, The Chaplet of The Divine Mercy during it, and then stared at the image of Jesus as it was revealed…

The Morning After

It’s not easy to face the priest the morning after the confession. I have not been a good Catholic since my conversion three years ago. Depression gets in the way in all areas of life. It ruins relationships, career, health, and so on. Leading a good religious life is extremely hard. In every depressive episode,…