Little Beginnings

I try to read but I only turn pages. A drifting mind cannot land and my heart wonders. My fingers are busy searching, desperately searching for a new song that will hold my mind a captive of its rhythm. Hoping for something– anything that could pull back my wondering soul. Where is it flying to…

St. Michael the Archangel

He’s got a big open chest, and giant wings. He’s got a lance ready to pierce in his hand while his foot is trampling over Satan’s head. He’s got power to kill the evil and to protect justice. He is not afraid. Instead, he is on the front line as a warrior, going wherever those…

A Vision to Save

I think it was about this time last year that I was sitting on my parent’s front porch suppressing my suicidal urge. It was especially intense that morning, and the scary thing was that I was home alone. Well, to the human eyes, I was alone. But I knew I wasn’t. I knew I had…

White Rose

An arrangement of white roses drew my attention. I got sucked into the world of the white rose. Its symbols and meanings came alive and started speaking to my heart. The white rose said, “Your sins are forgiven. You are as white as a white rose, the queen of the flowers. White lilies have nothing…

Clarification Day

If you follow the messages from Holy Love Ministry, then you will be familiar with “Jesus is here with his heart exposed.” I have to be honest. It took me a long while to get used to that phrase. I think the media has corrupted the word ‘expose’ as it does all things, and we…

Holy, My God, Hold me, Your Child

If you refuse medical treatment like me, then the best cure for panic attack is crying and sleeping. You literally cry and sleep your way out of the acute pain in your heart, the tightness around your chest, and the heaviness of your brain. Crying is a biological response to the need for chemical release….

Love Will Decide Everything

8:30 AM. I am at the bar. I feel my temperature dropping quickly, as my shaking body is about to collapse. It happens so fast, as it always does. Panic attack takes on a life of its own and things collapse at a mind-numbing speed. Before things go even worse, I stop everything and run…