The Great Silence

When my child finally falls asleep and her deep breathing signals that she is in bed for the night, the great silence opens up. It’s the time I realize that it is the only silence I’ve had all day. I guess J. K. Rowling used this sort of quiet hours to write her mega-selling books…

The Epiphany of the Lord

– Sigur Ros: Untitled 3 Sometimes, my prayer takes a form of closing my eyes with my face turned toward the sunrise, soaking and absorbing the warmth. As if evaporated by the heat, my soul flies up and up to the highest. I linger there, unable to utter a single word. Up there, I bow…

Thanksgiving in Heaven

Fragrance of frankincense is slowly filling the room while my sweet potato is being baked fast in my air fryer. As always, I sit in my favorite corner in my dining room soaking in the morning light. Thanksgiving is finally here. I’ve been hearing the messages of thanksgiving all week. At my parish, from the…

Anxiety Turned into Love

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. -Joshua 1:9 Let nothing disturb you, nothing frighten you;  All things are passing; God never changes.  -St. Teresa of Jesus Let us throw ourselves into the ocean of God’s goodness where every failing will be…

Everything Is Grace

I had just finished praying the rosary. Tears flooded down my face wetting the floor. I could hardly open my eyes after crying for a couple of hours. Lord, help me finish this life, not by my own power but purely by your grace. When these words poured out of my mouth, my tears finally…

Take Me with You

“Take me with you. Put me on your path. And I will follow you. I will suffer with you.” This is a short prayer that I wrote, perhaps, about the time I was embarking on my journey to Hawaii. I think I was preparing my move to Hawaii and this prayer desperately captured my deep…

Sacred Morning

In the Morning Light by Yanni Every morning, I walk to my front gate to get my newspaper. This small, mundane act has so much meaning to me. I wake up every morning with so much anticipation to start the day. Just the thought of sitting down with my morning paper on my white dining…

This country life and hope, hope, hope

I love this country life. This is my view, one of the countless million-dollar views from my drive from my daughter’s preschool. Can you believe it? How can you ever get tired of this view, this country life? I am beyond blessed. But still. Oh the seeking. Oh the desires. Oh this turbulent heart of…

Broken Child of God

One thing I love about living in the country is that my nights here are so quiet and undisturbed except for the sounds of nature. After every one is asleep and all my chores are done, I step outside to finally pause and breathe in the fresh country air. Last night, that moment came at…

Hallelujah

Thomas Merton says, “In a world of noise, confusion, and conflict, it is necessary that there be places of inner silence and peace, not the peace of mere relaxation but the peace of inner clarity and love.” These places of inner silence and peace can have so many personal meanings. I came across this quote…