Thanksgiving in Heaven

Fragrance of frankincense is slowly filling the room while my sweet potato is being baked fast in my air fryer. As always, I sit in my favorite corner in my dining room soaking in the morning light. Thanksgiving is finally here. I’ve been hearing the messages of thanksgiving all week. At my parish, from the…

See you again, Grandma

Today, my grandma wakes up in her new home, heaven. It was a drizzly rainy day all day. On my drive back home from the airport after dropping my mom off for her flight to Korea, I couldn’t stop crying. I now realize that I was mourning in grief during that hour-long drive home. It…

Restore us to yourself, Lord, that we may return…

Finally having a bit of silence and quiet time. Lately, I have been avoiding these rare moments when I could finally sit alone with myself. I could sense the deep longing and sadness that only God could heal, lurking deep inside my heart and I knew that the moment I allow my heart to open…

One Redemptive Afternoon

It was an unusually warm day for the late fall season. Eunice, my niece, was playing while my dad was trying to fix my sister’s TV. He was taking parts apart, and Eunice was clearly an obstacle for his grand project. The living room was dark, in contrast to the bright warm late Autumn day….

Do You Know?

  I met a woman who now bears the pain of losing her own child. She married a man she loved a year ago. I bet these newly weds had no idea that they will be standing in their daughter’s funeral a year later. It’s the same season, and the same cold November wind, but…

The Darkest Hour Is Just Before the Dawn.

  Hide, the lead guitarist from X Japan was only 33 years old when he was found dead hanged by a towel tied to a doorknob in his apartment in Tokyo. It was in 1998, the year after they disbanded X Japan to focus on solo projects.  Once the Authorities officially announced Hide’s death a…

A Promise to God

– – – I walked down to the statue of St. Michael holding a baby*. Feeling emotionally exhausted after an hour of pure crying, the setting sunlight that never fails to trigger the familiar depressive emotions had no effect on me. Something inside the chapel extinguished the fires of emotions burning inside my heart. After…

Into the Night

* * *  “Here’s my new boyfriend! Just kidding! 🙂 ” I send my El Salvadoran friend a snap shot of me and one of the artist’s young son, Raf, who is adopted from El Salvador. Raf was wearing a cap that says El Salvador with its national flag symbol printed on the front. I…

I Am Something Wonderful

  She’s a sweet lady. But her high expectation and excitement about the exhibit coming up is more than I can take on. N was supposed to come over to drop her framed watercolor paintings, and so I dragged myself out to get to the gallery by 1 pm. I wanted to take mom as…

Mother of God

  Cinderella had a Fairy Godmother who gave her a beautiful dress and a nice carriage ride to the ball. Me? I have a Mother of God who will get my soul ready to meet her Son in heaven.