The Journey of Revival

I walk in to my new house on my day one here.  I had just sent all my possessions in the moving truck. I followed truck on the beautiful country road and drove for 20 mins to get here. Once I stepped in, the first thing that greets my eyes is the book I thought…

The Darkest Hour Is Just Before the Dawn.

  Hide, the lead guitarist from X Japan was only 33 years old when he was found dead hanged by a towel tied to a doorknob in his apartment in Tokyo. It was in 1998, the year after they disbanded X Japan to focus on solo projects.  Once the Authorities officially announced Hide’s death a…

The Scar

* * * In Vita, the monks record her entering the monastery of St Disibod ‘in order to be buried with Christ and with him rise to immortality.’ – Hildegard of Bingen by Fiona Maddocks * * * “Why do you have these cuts on your hands? Oh, there’s more…” M said the other day….

A Girl with a Smile

When I got out of 5 pm Mass on Saturday evening, the evening sky was still as hot and intense as the day. Usually the intense brightness of the afternoon would magnify my gloom, especially so, when I am just getting out of a family friendly Saturday Mass full of families with small children and…

A Vision to Save

I think it was about this time last year that I was sitting on my parent’s front porch suppressing my suicidal urge. It was especially intense that morning, and the scary thing was that I was home alone. Well, to the human eyes, I was alone. But I knew I wasn’t. I knew I had…

Prayers for Suffering Souls

Suicide violates the fifth commandment of God “Thou shall not kill.” To kill is a mortal sin. Life comes from God, and it is a grave act of rebellion to take one’s own life, voluntarily rejecting the very gift God gave every human person. But the mentally ill people do not have the knowledge of the…

For Those who died by Suicide

* * * St. Kateri Tekakwitha, Lily of the Mohawks. She was known for her intense corporal mortification. * * * My mom has a friend who runs a hair salon in the basement of her house. On our way out, she gave mom some old Korean magazines from her magazine stack. I ended up…

Expert on Mental Illness Reveals Her Own Struggle – NYTimes.com

“Her passion was as deep as her loneliness” Expert on Mental Illness Reveals Her Own Struggle – NYTimes.com   Saved from her suicidal urges, now she is saving the lives of others who are fighting against the same fatal desires she had to go through. Suicidal urge is not to be taken lightly. It is…

Pange Lingua Gloriosi!

  I don’t know why God preserved me. There were so many encounters with death, but each time, God came to my rescue and carried me back to life. He saved me in so many ways, always in a dramatic style. But my favorite one is when he sent me the bible he has prepared…